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there are just some people who were literally born to be doctors at this hospital this man is one of those people i can't remember his name; it was the first day and my mind was still circling so i didn't pay much attention  but you knew that he was there to bring light to kids to kids going through hard things to be honest, Asher was at a point where he didn't want to be here and was expressing it by not answering doctors and looking unhappy (can you blame him?) and even though he wasn't always responsive to the doctor's humor, he would crack a smile every now and then and that made my heart happy one comment, in particular, stuck out "Asher, I have some good news and some bad news." "Good news is...your heart's not broken" (he was performing and echo as a baseline on his heart patterns/rhythm, etc.) "Bad news is...you're gonna break some hearts when you get older." i don't think Asher fully understands what that means, but
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in the last week i have learned more about this type of blood cancer than i ever wanted to know i know it takes up space in the plasma leaving less room for good cells and without good cells, our bodies don't work properly having blood cells that don't work properly is one thing but Asher also had an infection in his blood on top of his diagnosis and an infection around his knee joint, causing his limp that he had a few days before we took him in it all makes sense now. treating the infection was priority before his chemo treatment could begin he had a small surgery on his knee to "wash" out the joint of the bacteria.  after some sleepless night of him in pain, we see a light at the end of this tunnel he is finally walking, with even less of a limp than he had originally weight lifted caring for a 6 yo that can't walk on his own, who is attached 24/7 to a picc line IV is not easy. caring for a 6 yo that CAN walk on his own, who is attached 24/7 to a picc line IV i

Happy Thanksgiving

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it was nine days ago asher was exhibiting a pale face with white lips he wasn’t eating and all he wanted to do was sleep but not “take an hour nap, and wake up energized” kind of sleep the heavy eye lids, hard to wake, on the couch for hours kind. not normal kind it was seven days ago we took him to see his doctor he was given all the typical tests negative bloodwork was ordered at the hospital we went we came home then they called dangerously low blood levels sent us straight to the ER, with a transfer to Primary Children’s soon after more tests confirmed that our sweet Asher has Leukemia no. words. just tears . i may still have no words, and the tears still come, but one thing bernie and i do have…is gratitude overflowing there is power in prayer there is power in fasting there is power in a God that loves us and loves his child asher  Asher, you are strong you are brave you are loved we can do this